week 1.
"this week iniciates my creative recovery. I might feel both giddy and defiant, hopeful and skeptical. The readings, tasks, and excercises aim at allowing me to establish a sense of safety, which will enable me to explore my creativity with less fear". - Julia Cameron
key exercises.
the artist date.
A cinema solo session never fails.
Yes, I went to see Back to Future, which was released back in cinemas.
Omg the best classic in the world. I literally now every single song in the movie
Hey, you! Really, listen to me closely. Pick the movie you prefer. Buy yourself some pop corn and sweet treats. Go to the cinema alone.
emotional reflections.
The first contact with the book has been quite magnificent. I believe this is a good start to heal myself creatively.
I didn't realize how heavy the pressure of the digital "Frontstage" had become until I sat down to do my first set of Morning Pages. At first, my brain kept trying to edit and curate my own private thoughts. My inner critic, the voice that usually tells me a post won't perform well or an outfit isn't enough, was incredibly loud. It felt quite weird and refreshing to explain my thoughts just to the book, placing them somewhere which isn't my mind.
Week 1 is all about recovering a sense of safety, and it made me realize that social media is an inherently unsafe place for raw ideas. We are so trained to perform our productivity and romanticize our lives for the algorithm that we forget how to just exist without documenting it.
Taking my first Artist Date felt almost rebellious. No tripod, no aesthetic angles to capture, no content to schedule. Just me, forced to sit with myself offline. This week showed me that I have a lot of digital unlearning to do. I am scared to face the habits that are blocking me, but for the first time in months, I actually feel excited about the messy, behind-the-scenes reality of the process. Paula is really starting over.
week 2